Question
Reference number: 677335 | Prayers | June 23, 2019
I suffer from mental illnesses. Initially, I suffered from many physical illnesses which led to mental illnesses. My mental abilities started to decline. I started to lose concentration and ability to memorize things. I have become less smart than before. Additionally, I suffer from a skin disease which made whoever sees me or looks at me feel disgusted. I started to avoid going out so as not to be seen and insulted by anyone. It happened that I thought about committing suicide, but because I fear Allah, I quit. I spend my time at home praying and asking Allah to send Hiss blessings upon
Answer
Praise Be to Allah and Peace Be Upon His Messenger.
Initially, I pray for Allah and ask Him to cure you and reveal the grief and sadness which inhabits you.
According to what you said, whoever looks at you will insult you and feel disgusted, this is annoying, but this should not make you lose confidence. On the contrary, you should be stronger, trust Allah more and more, pray more, ask Allah to forgive you. Make more supplications. Go out, meet people, and perform the prayer in a congregation. At first, you could receive insult, but later, people will get used to seeing you, and your face will be familiar. They could stop annoying you. I understand how hard the situation is, but I would like to tell you what you have mentioned is not considered an excuse for not going to the mosque.